in my mind

Finding a boyfriend is like playing a game of hide and seek

except I'm hiding and they really suck at finding me haha

thought for the day.

Jesus didn't only hang out with his disciples.

You can't be a fisher of men if the only people you hang out with have already been caught.

Surrounding yourself with Christians isn't helping spread God's love.

Go find the lost and influence the seeking, that's what He wants us to do

"Come with me. I'll make a new kind of fisherman out of you. I'll show you how to catch men and women instead of perch and bass." They didn't ask questions, but simply dropped their nets and followed.

Matthew 4:19-20

thoughts about life.

Every day I'm struck by how fast life moves.

Life's confusing. It's not about the number of friends you have. It's not about the plans you make over the weekend. It's not about how many nights you can get so trashed that you don't even remember them. It's not about how you feel when you look in the mirror, how loud you can yell or if you have fridays off from class.

It's about singing in the car with the windows down. It's about living for a purpose. It's about friendships based on respect, love and mutual values. It's about being an example for your beliefs. It's about mexican for dinner and Reese sundaes for desert. It's about going to the parkway and seeing God's creation. Waking up to rain but keeping a positive attitude. Jumping in the puddles that are left in your path. It's about wearing your coziest sweatshirt and hugging every time you get the chance. It's about standing your ground and staying classy. Drinking coffee that's mostly creamer. Traveling the world. Laughing until you cry and making it a habit. It's about having a list of standards for a future boyfriend and not giving up on them. It's about talking about every aspect of your day and not keeping secrets. It's about forgiving and choosing who to value and recognizing who values you. 

Life's confusing, but that's just life. 

good day!

So far today has consisted of

sleeping in until 11:00

watching the Neelys on food network

mini chocolate chip muffins

and now I'm 

on my way to get my haircut (trimmed, really)

 

browse around  Southpark Mall (my fav)

 get delicious Starbucks and 

hang out with my awesome sisters! 

it's a GOOD DAY! 

Headed

for the weekend!

hallelujah... a little positivity!

Today was longggggggggggggg.

I was on campus from 9:30-12:15 and then like 1:30 until 10.

I went to class, did some homework, got to eat dinner with Megan, read some of my Sophie Kinsella book and got to go to a fun jam/coffee session interest meeting for The PEEL.

I'm really looking forward to meeting everyone on the staff and getting involved in their publication. I think I'm hopefully going to be on their poetry committee which will be a lot of fun!

But other then that, I have some EXTRA exciting news...

I GOT THE 

CHARLOTTE STYLE MAGAZINE

 INTERNSHIP!

I'm so so so so beyond thrilled!

I'm not exactly sure what I'll being doing yet but I know that I will be writing for them and I was given the option of either working from Boone or from Charlotte so I am so pumped!

Hopefully I'm on my way 
to becoming an "Andy (Andie)"

Like Andie Anderson resident "How to" girl from How to lose a guy in 10 days

(with the really hot advertiser boyfriend)

or Andy Sachs from Devil Wears Prada!

(with all the amazing clothes but minus the mean boss)

Either way, I want to be in NYC working on a magazine and I'm slowlyslowlyslowly getting there! 

If you don't like something 

change it; 

if you can't change it,

 change the way you think about it.  

~Mary Engelbreit

I love new york.

NYC - Mindrelic Timelapse from Mindrelic on Vimeo.

" Our soulmates are out there, they are just taking the long route...picking up muscles and lots of Jesus along the way!" 

- little miss Lori Norman

I can't.

I'd like a cup of coffee
spilling over the sides

served in a blue ceramic mug
perfectly cracked (like me)
but without a piece
to get caught in the bottom (sharp edges)
to cut me deep down
because that damage has already been done.

I know I can't.

But you've got me on a strand. 

A puppeteer on my heart- with each little tug

I'm drawn towards you.

And I want it to stop.

I can't focus on the words in front of me.
They progress across the page
tiny letters marching in a line...back and forth (seesaw)
My eyes blur and tears splash to form
black puddles from mascara and printer ink.

I can't right now.
its a guarded thing (what I should be doing)
but magnets -
South, North...you & me.

I want me only...
with my coffee and pity parties
and my tiny fractures to remain empty.
But you filled them
and I want to resist you
but I can't (I can't, I can't )

I just can't.

pizza & cheering up

So, I've been in my pajamas the entire day (always a good thing)

I don't have friday classes so I took a bath, read a little bit, ate vegetable noodle soup, watched TV and consumed way too many animal crackers.

Megan came over to eat dinner and watch a movie and the only time I "left my apartment" the entire day was to let her in and to get the pizza from a really friendly delivery guy

and then I proceeded to eat 4 slices of it.

You just can't beat hungry howies and their flavored crust. 

I think next time I may just order a large crust. 

Anyway, I love megan. She is so sweet and always helps me cheer up and today I was in need of some SERIOUS cheering up.

But pretty much this entire day has consisted of being lazy and eating... and I'm totally not complaining!

Here's to an even better day tomorrow!

trying to find the silver lining.

This week has just not been as good as it could've been. It wasn't bad necessarily it just wasn't awesome.

I wish I could pack up my stuff and hop on a train across the country and read for hours while looking out the window with Michael Buble' huming in my ears.

Then stop in New York and get an endless cup of coffee.

Fly to Minneapolis and visit the mall of America.

Stop in Montana and look up at the big blue sky.

Travel to Vail Colorado and watch the snow fall.

Talk to strangers and, for once, only focus on making myself happy.

 I'm already so tired of homework. My classes require a lot of my time outside of class. But I applied to the comm department finally so hopefully I will get in soon!

This week has made me want to punch a wall. I haven't been able to sleep and I can't sit still without feeling like I need to be doing something.

Life is just "asd;lajs;lealkjdaljksd right now

At least my 3:30 class today was canceled!

trying to find the silver lining...

A little piece inside me

sits in a patient yet frantic flutter.

A symmetrical beauty meant just for you

waiting to flit and float its fancy wings to find love.

 One day it will rest contently

in a jar that you'll set upon your shelf 

and it's fragile wings and bright hues

will continue to glow fluorescently 

with the fondness and comfort

of it's surroundings. 

I want to be your butterfly. 

poetry assignment numero dos.

For my second poetry assignment we had to write a fill in the blank poem about advice to writers. Wow what a bounty of creative freedom we've been given so far! (sarcasm)

But any-who, here's mine! 

(the bold words are the words I was given and the normal words are the ones I "filled in the blank")

A Writer’s Jungle

Even if it keeps you up all night,

type until the tips of your fingers go numb

and don’t forget to look both ways before composing a syllable.

Check your grammar as if the most savage of professors were on his way.

Quickly turn letters in your head believing that intimidation is the source of inspiration.

The more you caffeinate, the more brilliant

your writing will be, so do not hesitate to take

to the coffee bean trees, to discover the undersides

of mugs or refill your cup until the energizing drink has become

a river rapidly pouring into your mouth.

When you find your way back to the reality of a deadline

and a perspiring panic has slowly set in

you will behold in the light of dawn

the immaculate altar of your desk,

a dry and safe haven in the middle of a homework swamped world. 

From a small vase, bravely lift

a yellow pencil, the sharpest of the autographical blades

and cover the pages with lead laden sentences

like long rows of ants

that followed you in from the literary jungle. 

my amazing-awesome- Ilovehersomuch- friend Caroline just started a blog .

You should read it :)

fringe-tastic.

So tonight I had nothing to do except eat a tuna sandwich and watch the movie Honey on E!
And after an afternoon with Lori and Caroline talking about how we should great a Girls Just Wanna Have Fun / craft club I decided to do a "craft" myself!

I don't know if any of ya'll ever look at the website PS I made this but it has so much cool stuff on it! She takes decorations, accessories or clothing items that she likes on celebrities or that she sees in stores and makes her own cheaper version of it!

Since I love scarves I decided to make a fringe scarf for myself!

All you need is an old shirt and scissors. It was so easy and it turned out really cute! Here is the finished product (I realize I look pretty lame in this picture but at least it shows off the scarf!)

So if you're bored, might as well go get your fringe on!

fingerprints.

In poetry class today we had to read our poems (the one from my post yesterday) and it was so interesting to hear where each person in my class had "come from". 

The most interesting (and shocking) thing to listen to was the part of the poem that was supposed to regard religion. I think maybe 2 or 3 other people in my class had lines that regarded religion in a positive light and everyone else in my class either left it out or had something negative to say about it.

Each poem was completely unique and surprisingly transparent. They were so open on the details of their lives and it was really cool to listen to them one after the other and hear the contrast of each person's life.

But it really just made me think about how each person God created has a story precisely picked out for them. 

The steps you have to take to figure out what your destined to do

The path you take to find the person you'll someday spend your life with

The lack of religion that has made you wonder or the services that let you learn

The friends you struggle to find or can't live without

The trust that was broken by your parents divorce or the love you admire

The family your memories are shared with 

Each and every one of these things is COMPLETELY different for every single person on the earth. God knew you from the beginning. 


Your tiny little feet, your tendency to overeat when it comes to chocolate, your awkward shaped birthmarks and the rebellious phase you'll face as a teenager.

God knows 6,893,398,314 stories like this (and counting) from beginning to end, completely by heart.

You are uniquely you and your life is uniquely yours. Don't take for granted the life God gave you, because no other one is like it. 

" Never has there been and never again

Will there be another you

Fashioned by God's hand and perfectly planned

To be just who you are

And what He's been creating

Since the first beat of your heart

Is a living, breathing

Priceless work of art

And I can see the fingerprints of God

When I look at you

I can see the fingerprints of God

And I know it's true

You're a masterpiece that all creation

Quietly applauds

And you're covered with

The fingerprints of God"

"Winter, spring, summer or fall, all you have to do is call and I'll be there yeah yeah yeah, you've got a friend..."

1st poetry class.

Well, lets just say that the people in my poetry class are prettttty eccentric. 

There's some purple hair, interesting piercings and long hippie skirts but you know...to each his own!

I do kind of feel like I'm the only one who didn't smoke weed before class though haha but we got our first assignment today! We had to imitate "Where I'm from"  by George Ella Lyons. It's funny cause I'm pretty sure I did this in 8th grade and now I'm doing it again for college.

But here are both of them so you can compare. We had to keep it pretty much the same format and we had to try and use the same parts of speech for each line.

This is the original

I am from clothespins,

from Clorox and carbon-tetrachloride.

I am from the dirt under the back porch.

(Black, glistening,

it tasted like beets.)

I am from the forsythia bush

the Dutch elm

whose long-gone limbs I remember

as if they were my own.

I'm from fudge and eyeglasses,

          from Imogene and Alafair.

I'm from the know-it-alls

          and the pass-it-ons,

from Perk up and Pipe down

I'm from He restoreth my soul

          with a cottonball lamb

          and ten verses I can say myself.

I'm from Artemus and Billie's Branch,

fried corn and strong coffee.

From the finger my grandfather lost

          to the auger,

the eye my father shut to keep his sight.

Under my bed was a dress box

spilling old pictures,

a sift of lost faces

to drift beneath my dreams.

I am from those moments--

snapped before I budded --

leaf-fall from the family tree.

This is my version...

I am from lily twinkle lights

from rod iron bed frames and cinnamon febreeze.

I am from a keyboard under my fingers

(flat, clacking,

it sounds like the rain)

I am from the Dogwood tree,

the Bradford Pear

whose fragrance I remember

as if I’d passed one today.

I’m from Reeses and guitar strings,

from Maddox and Bouldin.

I’m from the one-in-a-millions

and the always-and-forevers,

from live it up and tone it down.

I’m from Prince of Peace

with church seats six in row

and valued morals I’ve instilled in myself.

I’m from time well spent and southern roots,

From home cooked meals and peppermint coffee.

From the pride my grandfather gained

in the Vietnam war

the hand my Dad held firm so we’d grow up right.

Behind our navy front door rests my childhood

brimming with old memories,

a snapshot of my family

the people that caught my fall and carried my dreams.

I am from this life-

gently captured in my hands-

a wispy cloud in a bright blue sky.

you've got to work work work it out.

yes, that is a title from high school musical...

" It's very important to have the right clothing to exercise in. If you throw on an old t-shirt or sweats, it's not inspiring for your workout..." - Cheryl Tiegs

I have no idea who Cheryl Tiegs is but I think she is spot on! For 2011 I'm trying to exercise as much as I can to establish a healthy lifestyle and to make sure I have a healthy heart! 

But there is no way I feel motivated to exercise if I'm in not so flattering clothes.

Un-cute clothes can make you feel frumpy, sloppy and they don't show off what you've already got working for you. 

When I go to the gym I always try to wear something that I feel confident in because that's my goal when I leave! I want to be confident that I had a good work out and if I step on the treadmill looking unattractive in the first place it's not going to make me feel any better when I get off. 

You may not feel the same way but if you do then drive yourself right on over to Target or Walmart and pick yourself up some cute workout clothes... there's nothing like a little fashion fitness motivation!

or the fact that spring break is in 2 months...

or remembering all that stuff you ate over christmas break...

or how envious I am of her stomach...

or maybe just staring at Zac Efron emerging from the ocean might get you motivated

whatever you do, you've only got one life to live so might as well be healthy while you're doing it!

sleepin' in & writing.

Today I woke up at 11:49. Made some coffee, ate a banana, made up my bed and now I have nothing to do. (I'm not complaining.) I've been drinking Dunkin' Donuts cinnamon spice coffee and it's SO GOOD. But my loyalty still lies with Starbucks, don't worry!

On mondays I don't have class until 5 at night and I don't have classes on Fridays. It's pretty much like I have a 4 day weekend except for the 1 hour and 15 minutes I'll be spending in Mass Communication. I'm going to try and not be lazy this year but I have a feeling it's going to be pretty difficult with a schedule like that! My goal is to work out Monday Wednesday and Fridays since I'm going to have so much free time.

But other then that I want to play my guitar more

 but my main goal is to get something of mine submitted. I really want to write more and hopefully branch out into non fiction. Non fiction is hard though because I have a pretty uneventful life but I'm gonna work on it! 

If any of ya'll have any ideas then please let me know! I've been looking at skirt magazine and a few others. Poetry is my forte and I don't really know of very many poetry publications. I really want to be successful at what I do! Right now I don't really have anything going for me in the relationship area (or anywhere else for that matter) so I've decided to strive toward a successful career. I want to make it big in the journalism-advertising-creative writing field! The key to success is getting my name and writing out there early and making contacts with people!

I just need a place to start!

thoughts of the day

here are some random thoughts of the day just for the heck of it...

- Jimmy Fallon is hilarious. I've been recording Late Night with Jimmy Fallon over break and every time I watch it I think there's at least one part in the show were I laugh so hard that I start crying. Plus I think he's pretty cute and the fact that he's hilarious makes him even cuter, I'd totally date someone like Jimmy Fallon. But anywho, every friday he writes thank you notes for the week and they are SO FUNNY. Friday's were hilarioussss.   (Que music)

" thank you...chocolate chips... for not being called sugar turds."

- I wish my apartment at school had carpet

-  Mayfield ice cream has a very specific taste. It's not bad its just like "oh, I can tell I'm eating Mayfield ice cream because of this taste." 

- I went and saw Country Strong today with my Mom and it was SO GOOD!!!!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT! It was really sad but it was awesome. I've already got some of the soundtrack added onto my iTunes. Gwenyth Paltrow did a great job and the music in it is great. I LOVE country music.

- I love target. I don't know how I survive without its clean organized isles and cute clothes section while I'm at school. (withdrawal)

- I really need to stop biting my nails for 2011. They look awful and break so easily. I guess I should just cut them really short because it's not like they ever get to the point of being long anyway. Pretty hands make a good impression!

- I'd like to do something new with my hair because it's pretty much been the exact same since sophomore year of high school. I know, don't fix something that ain't broke, but it's just getting monotonous. 

(totes)

But anyway, tomorrow (today I guess) I'm headed back up the mountain. I don't want to drive back to school with icy roads or leave my warm cozy comfortable house. AH! I'm nervous and I don't want to face the snow...but I'm gonna be as safe and positive as I can be!

here's a cute picture to end my post :)

nerd 4 lyfe

I'm such a nerd.

I'm actually excited to start classes again!

I don't really know why because normally by Wednesday after I've gone to all of my classes a least once, I am completely over the excited part of it.

But I'm REALLY excited about my poetry class (nerd alert) and the fact that I have fridays off! You just can't beat a long weekend, people. 

Anywho, one of my goals that I left off my list a few days ago is to spend more time on campus this semester. I feel like I missed out on a lot of friendship time being in my apartment constantly. And now, since I have 4 classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays, I will definitely be able to be on campus more and grab lunch & coffee with my friends during breaks.

YAY CROSSROADZ.

I don't know what it is but I'm feeling really positive and excited for this semester which is rare for me haha! So I hope it can live up to this excited nerdy school girl feeling I have in my stomach when I think about it. I kind of feel like something new and exciting is going to happen or something...

But If not I'll just chalk it up to being that anxious first day feeling like I used to get before I put on a book-bag twice my size and headed for the halls of elementary school.

But here's to hoping this semester is all I dream it to be...

nerd 4 lyfe. 

peace out....

rock on.