April 30, 2012


Like my new blog background and color scheme? I thought I'd freshen it up a little bit for spring and summer.

Anyway, I'm procrastinating, as usual, but I thought I'd post a few pictures of style I've been pinning lately. Enjoy!


April 29, 2012

be love.

"But thank God! He gives us victory over sin and death through our Lord Jesus Christ"
1 Corinthians 15:57
I want to BE LOVE.
Wondering what I mean? Well, here are my thoughts.

I believe that every person is born with sins that they're always going to struggle with. This can be through alcoholism, homosexuality, stubbornness, negativity, loneliness, an eating disorder and a multitude of other sins.

To say that God has challenged me in the friend department at ASU would be an understatement. Friendships that I thought would last forever have vanished. Friends that I valued have hurt me to the core. Friends that I took upon myself to pour into have ended up dragging me down. Sin has attacked many of my friendships and has attacked my view of myself. Facing the closed door of these friendships has resulted in a deep self reflection.

I've been accused of being mean, being bossy, having a judgmental attitude, of always looking like I'm in a bad mood, of being negative all the time. I want to apologize to anyone I've hurt, anyone I've wronged and anyone that has felt this way toward me. These words left me feeling so confused. The things that they were saying to me were words that I would never use to describe myself. Was I really negative all the time? Was I bossy?

It honestly made me sad. I want people to look at me and see a happy person who is trying to live like Christ. I want people to look at me and wonder, what makes that girl act the way she does? I felt bad that I wasn't portraying that, but I knew that I was happy within, so I didn't (and still don't) know how to change it.

There hasn't been a day that I haven't thought about what these people have said to me. I like to think of myself as accommodating. I always try to put others before myself when it comes to decision making. I would never define myself as negative. In an effort to not let myself get let down, I think of life realistically rather than being overly optimistic. I'd rather be pleasantly surprised than let down. 

I want to BE LOVE. 

As Christians I understand holding each other accountable. If there is a sin that needs to be addressed in a friend's life, I'm instructed by God to let them know about it. But attacking someone for it and then leaving them left in a mess is not, what I believe, God intended. If I believe a friend is struggling with something, I want to address it in a way that says "I'm here to help. We're all sinners and I love you no matter your flaws."

Cutting people out of your lives is the right thing to do in certain situations, but using it as an escape can end up causing more damage than good. Does the bible not say to forgive others as God forgave us?

I once heard a quote that said "Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one getting burned. "

This is infinitely true. I have been hurt by friends countless times, and I've hurt them. I am FAR from perfect. I'm sure I have been some of the things that my friends have accused me of being, but I'm also a sinner. What they've said to me is in the past, GOD HAS MADE US CLEAN. Forgiveness can eat away at you, I know from experience. But as this quote says, it really hurts you more than the person you're not forgiving. I've stopped holding on, and the burns are healing.

I know that I've hurt others and I know that a lot of the things I've done have ended up hurting me in the end. I'm not happy go lucky. I'm not going to grin from ear to ear all the time. But I want everyone to know that I am overflowing with the joy of the Lord! I can't change my personality, but I can wake up each morning with the intentions of honoring God in EVERY aspect of my life. I want every spec of my being to radiate his LOVE. I want to BE LOVE.

My devotion this morning spoke volumes to me. I want it to be a guide for my lifestyle. It read: 1 John 3:18-24
"Dear children, let's not just talk about love; let's practice real love. This is the only way we'll know we're living truly, living in God's reality. It's also the way to shut down debilitating self-criticism, even when there is something to it. For God is greater than our worried hearts and knows more about us than we do ourselves.
 And friends, once that's taken care of and we're no longer accusing or condemning ourselves, we're bold and free before God! We're able to stretch our hands out and receive what we asked for because we're doing what he said, doing what pleases him. Again, this is God's command: to believe in his personally named Son, Jesus Christ. He told us to love each other, in line with the original command. As we keep his commands, we live deeply and surely in him, and he lives in us. And this is how we experience his deep and abiding presence in us: by the Spirit he gave us."

I am thankful for the lessons on friendship that God is continually teaching me. I'm not perfect. I'm just a rental space for the holy spirit of the Lord. But as I live, learn, am hurt, am broken, am healed, I want to BE LOVE, the love of the Lord.  

April 25, 2012

Happy Birthday, Mom!

Happy Birthday to the BEST mom in the entire world!! I am so blessed to have such a loving, kind, funny, smart, beautiful Mom who is always there to pick me up, support me, cheer me on, and to just have fun with! Whether it's concerts, trips to NYC, cracking up over youtube videos, or just hanging out at home, we always have the best time together and I wouldn't trade it for anything! I hope to be half the amazing person, wife, mother, and grandmother that you are! Love you, Mom!! :)

April 17, 2012

Fly Away

Wheels on a skateboard,
he road the asphalt like a steady wave.
The San Francisco sky had approached nightfall
and eggplant colored clouds hung like puppets in the sky.
Wisps of wind as their strings
dancing along the brim of his hat.

In a house, time ticked
like the the click of her tongue.
She sat arms folded impatiently as
the smell of carrots hung in the air,
their shavings wound in the sink
like orange caterpillars, 
 sleeping silently in an oversized metal cocoon.

He passed the colored buildings
painted doorways and crooked roofs
that rose and fell like the gentle breath of a high school memory,
a love that was as short as a shoe lace
but one that fiercely wound itself around his heart
and cut into him like barbwire.

At night they'd escape in each other's touch
 but neither knew their minds both wandered to distant thoughts
of forgotten lovers, and fading dreams
of uncharted territory and
the spreading of fragile wings
against the risky winds of the unfamiliar. 

"I'll be home by 7:30," he'd said
but the loop of infinity had made its way 
onto her clock over an hour ago
and had broken easily,
evoking in her a need for escape 
and dropping out the bottom to form a 9.

 And she watched as single digits
took turns as 9's sidekick.

4, 5, and then 6
6o seconds,
then change.

He rode
and she waited,
60 seconds,
then change.

And the carrots got soggy,
and the clouds fell behind a curtain of black
and when he opened their door 
with the tick of the clock
all he found was a note of goodbye

and a whole room of butterflies. 

April 06, 2012


(beware, lots of pictures to follow...)

First of all, I want to apologize for my lack of blogging in like...a month. Oops! I have just been so busy lately! And my free time is spent sleeping, eating, or socializing with my lovely friends!

Anyway, let me update you on my life!

Here are some pictures of what I've been up to...

Church outfit 

Cabo fish tacos

Stickboy magic cookie: Chocolate chip, coconut, pecan, marshmallow

Holocaust museum

 Alchemy coffee shop in Boone

Pedicures with Ashley

Beautiful campus

Lunch with both of my Grandmothers

Georgetown cupcakes

 My sweet cousin Brooklyn at Papa's retirement celebration

So first, good news - Spring Break was the second week of March and my friends Lena, Bailey, Emily and I went to Washington DC together! We had such a good time!

We stayed at Lena's cousin's house in Maryland (right outside DC) which was so nice and convenient! It was so nice to have a cozy place and sweet family to come home to after lots of walking! (We also got free food, added bonus!!)
This was their adorable little boy Zaine, how CUTE is he? Precious.

Anyway, we did lots of shopping, eating, Starbucks drinking, and exploring the city! The cherry blossoms bloomed early this year and they were so beautiful while we were there! We visited the Holocaust Museum, The Museum of American History and we visited the Georgetown campus one night which was beautiful! We watched The Bachelor Finale one night, went to get Italian and hit up a piano bar, we had a not too great experience at a diner and stayed in one night, ate pizza and watched My Week with Marilyn (which was awesome!) We had a great time and I love these girls!

Here are some pictures of the fun we had

Not so good news - I figured out that Her Campus Appalachian State officially can't become a club. Due to the fact that becoming a club would cause more readership and more readers would generate more revenue for the Her Campus headquarters, ASU decided that it shouldn't be allowed. I understand but it is still a bummer! I'm just going to use it as fuel for my determination to continue to make HC AppState the best it can be!

AWESOME news - Do you remember the internship I had been talking about? How I was nervous about what would happen this summer and what I would be doing?
Well, I GOT IT!!!! 

This summer I will be interning in Boston, Massachusetts at Digitas! I am BEYOND excited! Seriously, excited is an understatement. I'm going to be a creative intern and I'll be making $400 a week! How cool is that? Also, their office looks really neat and modern! I'm going to be interning with probably about 8-10 other people and I'm hoping to make some great new friends!

But do you wanna hear the best part??

Not only will I be in Boston, an AMAZING city...

Not only will I be making money...

Not only will I be shopping, drinking coffee, making new friends and going to Red Sox games...


Yep, my best friend and twin, Lindy, got an internship in Boston this summer too! She's going to be working with a Fashion PR company called Succarra and interning for them!
This is their veryyyyy pretty showroom in Boston...

Isn't that AWESOME!!! We are so excited to take on a big city together and spend our last college summer just enjoying life and livin' it up! I love her and I am so glad we'll be doing this together!

Watch out Boston, we're coming!!

Until I have more free time on my hands, xoxo!