October 31, 2010


You're procrastinating...

The motivation to do work has yet to be found.

Coffee just didn't cut it this morning.

Your bed is calling your name.

And since you have managed to get nothing done...

The only thing left to do

is to stop fighting those heavy eyelids

change into  your most comfortable sweats

turn on your fan

close your curtains

slide under the covers

and succumb to the comfy cozy thoughtlessness that is

a nap.

October 28, 2010

decisions! decisions!

So here's the scoop...

Today, during my free time between classes (that I should have spent studying for the test I have tomorrow, oops) I was trying to figure out what I classes I should take next semester.

Registration is coming up soon...aka November 16th at 2:00 pm for me and I have to be ready to pounce on the classes I need like they're my prey.


So as I sat down to my computer I was under the impression that this would be fairly simple task, choose a few classes, it can't be that hard right?

I was sadly mistaken.

Choosing classes has proven to be one of the most time consuming, frustrating, hair-pulling, teeth gritting, I-want-to-scream-slash-maybe-I'll-just-drop-out processes ever.

You see, I'm having problems deciding what to major in!

This is not good because choosing classes has EVERYTHING to do with your major!

Choosing a major may seem easy but in reality you're choosing something that changes

               THE REST OF YOUR LIFE
                            THE REST OF YOUR LIFE
                                    THE REST OF YOUR LIFE
                                          THE REST OF YOUR LIFE
                             LIFE LIFE LIFE LIFE LIFE  (echoing)

Now I realize I'm being a tad bit dramatic (but hey that's who I am, okay?)

So anyways I realized that I don't know what to do.

Like, at all.

I want to do Journalism but I don't feel like Non Fiction writing is really my thing. It takes a lot of work to be a successful journalist and I've always been geared more to writing fiction.

I want to do Graphic Design but I'm 99.9999999999% positive I can't get into the art department. I love to design online! I feel like I have a knack for it and I can waste hours upon hours doing it but my art department is intense (you have to be able to draw too..since when does that help with graphic design?) so I feel like I have a very slim chance of getting in.

I want to do Advertising but I don't know if I care about the business-target-market-y aspect of it. I think it would give me the chance to design without having to get accepted into the art department which is good. I just don't know if I would be all that into it.

I want to do Creative Writing but I don't feel like I have a high chance of getting hired. As most of you know, I love love love poetry and fiction. I've always loved writing. I'm good at it and it comes naturally to me, but a career... I just don't know how successful that would be.

And apparently right now my official registration status says that I'm a Studio Art major (what the???) which I have never even considered so I don't know how they got that idea.

My fantasy job is to Design Magazine Layouts and write on the side.

Now if someone could just point me in the direction of what to major in, that would be superb!


p.s. If you really do have any magazine contacts that I could talk to about what to major in I would greatly appreciate your help!


The sun is out today!

Isn't it crazy how much that can improve your mood?


I took this picture on my phone walking home from class,

I was in the shade but you get the picture

(haha get it!? I'm so funny)

There is no season such delight can bring

As summer, autumn, winter and the spring.

i love the sun.

October 27, 2010

Lindy got a blog!

Hip hip hoooorayy!

Lindy has a blog!

Her goal is to focus on fashion at ECU and post pictures of the flyest guys and gals around campus! It's gonna be really cool - similar to the Satorialist!

check out the design I made for her!

Lindy's blog

I'm pretty proud of it if I do say so myself :)

I can't wait for her to post! YAY!

Welcome Lindy!

October 26, 2010


I don't exactly see myself as a postive person but I've been around my fair share of people who are a lot more negative then me. They can hurt my feelings without trying to and always find  something to complain about even when its something trivial and stupid. It can get really old. So heres my rant through a poem.


I may see the glass as half empty -
but yours is completely shattered. 

You fuss about things
that don't even matter.

Isn't it tiring 
to be so pessimistic?

Could you crack a smile for more than thirty seconds 
or are you incapable of positivity?

What gets me is your naivety of the fact
that all you do is whine.

Is it really that bad or are
you just bored of it all?

I'm hurt by your words but
you don't realize the toll

they can take on me.
Actions speak loud but your words SCREAM.

You always seem to cut me down -
Aren't I short enough already?

Maybe you should try to
watch what you say.

Some censorship would be a nice
addition to your sarcasm.

I hope the sunshine will eventually come out
(someday spill out)

but for now stop complaining - 
its draining on my nerves

And I can't stay around 
when all you do 

is bring about a dark
gray cloud.

You're hovering -
pissed off and upset. 

And all thats left
to say is

Rain, rain
go away.

October 24, 2010

poe- Mmmmm


I'm ready.
The road stretches out in front of me, sprawling miles.
Pristinely placed, winding and wild 
the pavement mirrors the black  and white lines of life. 

A snapshot of my time spent here
is a cup of coffee and a keyboard
clacking monotonously,
clashing with the music
(heavy on the creamer)

Juxtaposed nicely
with the melodious tunes that
constantly peal through the 
back ground.

I'm a blank canvas
a painters choice.
Prepared for colors
to glide cool upon me
of happy yellows
gloomy grays and
cheery purples 

I'm ready
to hold on to my aspirations.
Shimmery bubbles
that float around my head
bouncy & fleeting they'll lead
me to my future.

I want to be

October 20, 2010



He sends forth lightening from His storehouse,

 He breathes out the wind, 

waters the earth,

 raises up rulers, 

directs the course of nations, 

births life,

 ordains death,

 and in the midst of it all, still has time to be intimately acquainted with everyday affairs of everyone on the planet "

- Louie Giglio.

October 19, 2010

as the years go by.

as the years go by...

in 2 years -

what I know:

 I'll be a senior about to graduate

I'll be applying to real life actual jobs. CRAZY
I'll be a journalism / advertising / creative writing major
I'll be spending my last year as a mountaineer

what I want:
a serious boyfriend
a good group of christian friends
to be looking for a place to live in a big city - Boston, New York, Chicago
to be able to travel abroad somewhere
to be free!

in 6 years
who knows what I know...
but I know what I want!

what I want is:

a fiance, serious boyfriend, or husband
a cute little apartment (emphasis on the little) in my current big city

A boston terrier or a bulldog
a good group of christian friends
A job at a magazine or newspaper

to be exercising every day
to have traveled the world

in 10 years
who knows what I know..
but I know what I want!

what I want is:
a wedding and engagement ring on my finger

A child on the way
good friends
A cozy place to live

a steady job & income

I want all these things,
as the years go by... 

October 17, 2010

good grief.

"There must be millions of people all over the world who never get any love letters...I could be their leader."

- Charlie Brown

I feel ya, Charlie. I could be their leader too. We can be co-leaders.

I've realized that I go to a school largely composed of couples.
I can only name like 5 friends at school off the top of my head that aren't dating anyone.

It makes me so annoyed to have to be the only one who can't include themselves in conversation about couple-y stuff

or to ALWAYS be the third wheel.

or to have people say "you wouldn't understand".

I think that phrase could win an award for most condescending thing to say. EVER.

I feel like I should transfer to an all girls college so I'm not bombarded my excessive PDA and hand holding everywhere I look.

Or at least a school where the average guy is more my type...not that it would help.

I think I'm just jealous and bitter.

I need a snoopy in my life.

But anyway, I thought I'd vent for a little bit.

me and charlie can totally relate...
You're a good man Charlie Brown.

October 11, 2010

day dreamin' for a dollar #2

here is what I'm dreamin' about...

I wish I was tall enough to pull off over the knee boots.

You need an umbrella like this in boone!

Warm and with a hood...what else do you need?
love love.
love love love! She looks so warm and comfortable.

My coffee should look cute too.
I heart rings.

October 10, 2010

October 07, 2010


In the stillness

Comforter, I stand

Unbound my heart
unwound my sins
with your promise
so sound and secure.

Lord, I kneel

Appease my soul
break open my heart
with your promise
my burden's eased

Prince of peace,

Hold me together
replenish my strength
with your promise
I'm whole again.

Almighty one,

make me new
unworthy grace
unfold upon me.
Love me -

God, I'm yours.

October 06, 2010


Today was a great day! For some reason I was just in a great mood...probably because I have lots of things to be happy about!

First of all, today is my Dad's birthday!
He is turning 46 today! Can you believe it!? 3 Kids in college, 1 married and a grandchild on the way!

My Dad is probably the nicest person in the world. I have never met someone as selfless, giving, caring, lovable, nice, goofy, funny or amazing as him. If anyone was ever in trouble or needed something, my dad is always the first one there. He has been the perfect example of what a husband should be like. He is a godly and loyal husband and has provided his kids with way more than we ever needed. My Dad is one of my favorite people to hug. I love singing along to the radio with him with the windows rolled down. I love how he forces the athleticness out of me and how he makes me laugh. He is my biggest fan and I love him so much! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!

Second of all.
I just love fall weather. I puts me in such a great mood to see the leaves swirling around me and everyone in their boots and jackets. Today it was SO WINDY! It didn't even say sunny or cloudy on the weather channel it just said WINDY! On my way to class I walked like 10 times faster than usual with the wind at my back. At one point I was laughing out loud and I probably looked like a lunatic but it was just hilarious. My hair was in my face and I felt like if I jumped into the air I would be blown away!

Also, for some reason I think my theater teacher is hilarious. I find myself with this huge stupid grin on my face from trying not to laugh out loud. I love funny people! And I love laughing. Its the best. 

Guess what?!? Lindy, my mom and my Dad are coming this weekend!
I'm so excited to get to spend time with them here in BEAUTIFUL BOONE! We're going to the APP vs. Elon game on saturday so that should be fun and we're just gonna enjoy the nice weather and eat at all the yummy local restaurants! I feel like I haven't seen my parents in forever so I'm gonna give them both the most wonderful hugs ever! YAY!

So anywho...

Today it's just hit me how blessed I am!
I have a wonderful family, great friends, I'm really enjoying my classes, I go to a school I love and I'm just truly happy - I'm blessed with anything I could have ever needed! 

God has given me all of this, I owe it all to him for putting me here at APP. He knew this is where I was supposed to be and this year is going really well! 

Now you've got my feet on the life path, 
      all radiant from the shining of your face. 
   Ever since you took my hand, 

      I'm on the right way.

Psalm 16:11

October 04, 2010


bad parts of the day

- there was an old man at Harris Teeter who was extremely impatient. He pushed my cart out of the way and starting unloading his stuff on top of mine in the self check out line while I was in the middle of checking out
- I didn't exercise

good parts of the day

- B on my first COMM test
- hot chocolate
- boots
- warm jackets
- getting in bed early (I'm in it right now)
- chili and cornbread for dinner

Happy monday!

October 02, 2010

Happy Fall!

i found this Fall poem and it made me laugh

Pretty Leaves
Pretty leaves are falling down,
Green, orange, yellow and brown.
Here comes one colored red,
It landed on my head.