August 30, 2011


This is my first assignment for my prose class. I can tell I'm really going to like this class! Anything that gets me writing! P.s. I realize that I've probably written stuff before using the name 'miles' but I just think it's a really hott name, so sue me...

On the Tuesday before the first day of fall, Miles asked if he could take me for a drive along the Blue Ridge Parkway. We hadn’t talked in over three weeks, but I’d said I’d go to break the cycle of silence.
When we arrived at Price Lake, it was nearly dark and the autumn sun was setting behind our backs. Our breath came out in puffs of chilled humidity, floating in the air like the unspoken words we both knew existed. He’d told me to buckle my seatbelt as we winded around the foliage-covered roads, even though I always did, and the rest of the ride had continued quietly. We walked to the edge of the water, arms crossed, standing on the rocks; we were both waiting for the other to start conversation.
“It’s colder than I thought it’d be” He spoke without looking in my direction, eyes on his feet.
Small talk, I was never a fan. I snuggled into my sweatshirt and stretched the fuzzy sleeves down past my wrists and gripped them in my hands. “Yeah,” I said, “guess you should’ve brought a jacket”.
He turned around to face me but I bent down, found a sturdy place to land and sat Indian style away from his gaze.
“So this is how it’s going to be?” He said, “You’re acting like I’m not even here.”
I answered his question with no response, picked up a flat pebble and threw it full force into the placid blue where it skipped three times over and then vanished. The sky was now littered with stars and yet I didn’t move.
“Ignoring me’s not gonna solve anything.” He said.
I could tell I was getting to him, but I didn’t care. Whatever I was about to say, I knew he could handle it, and if he couldn’t, that was his problem.
I let the words spill out of my mouth and even though I said them quietly, I knew they’d piss him off, “there’d be nothing to solve if it weren’t for you, Miles.”
His face was flushed with confusion. “Look, I don’t even know what I did wrong! You just started giving me the cold shoulder out of the blue! One second we’re great and the next it’s like we’re complete strangers, I just don’t get it!”
I was starting to feel nauseous. The guilt was eating away at my insides, at… it. At the reason why I hated Miles so much, the reason why I hated myself, the reason why I’d ignored him for over 20 days, when all I really wanted to do was crawl into his arms and lay there forever.
            “I’m just mad at you, okay?” It sounded juvenile even to my own ears but the words I needed to say were stuck behind the tears in my throat and they weren’t moving.
“Baby, what’s wrong, can’t you just tell me?” Miles spoke with sadness about him and crouched down next to me near the lake.
“That’s…” I said. “Please don’t.” I hunched over and brought my knees to my chest as tears began to run down my face in the moonlight.
“Baby, just talk to me, please?” He pushed back my hair, took my chin in his hands and at his touch the irretrievable truth came crashing down.
“Miles… I’m pregnant.”

August 27, 2011

Birthday fun!

Well, Wednesday I turned 20 years old! Yep, that's right people, this tiny 4'10 girl is now 20! Watch out world. That night, Kelly, Lori, Caroline and I all went to get frozen yogurt and decided to save the really fun stuff for friday when we didn't have class the next morning!

 We went to Sweet Frog and it was delicious! I got Chocolate, Cake Batter and Cappuccino fro-yo with Reeses, strawberries and chocolate chips on it. It was TO DIE FOR. So good. I filled up my cup to the very top and stuffed my face!

Then last night for my birthday Kelly and I had Lori, Caroline, Laura, Brittney and Megan over to our place for a little mexican fiesta! We had shredded salsa chicken tacos, cheese dip and salsa! It turned out really good! (I forgot to take a picture of the food though, bummer!)

Then for dessert, Brittney and Megan made us a yummmmmmmmmmy brownie pizza! It was uh-mazing. It's a brownie on a pizza pan with a pineapple cream cheese topping and a bunch of strawberries walnuts and chocolate syrup on top.

Here's the recipe if you want it!

Banana Split Pizza

1 (20-ounce) box fudge brownie mix (recommended: Duncan Hines Chewy Fudge Brownie Mix)
1 (8-ounce) package cream cheese, softened
1 (8-ounce) can crushed pineapple, drained, juice reserved
2 tablespoons sugar
2 bananas, sliced and tossed in lemon juice to prevent browning
1 cup fresh strawberries, sliced
1 cup chopped nuts
Chocolate ice cream topping or chocolate syrup, for drizzling
Preheat oven to 350 degrees F.
Grease a 15-inch pizza pan. Prepare the brownie mix according to box directions. Pour into the prepared pan. Bake for 20 minutes, or until done. Remove from the oven and cool. Beat the cream cheese, pineapple, and sugar together in a bowl. Use any reserved pineapple juice at this time, if needed, to soften the mixture to a good spreading consistency. Otherwise dispose of or save the juice for another use. Spread the mixture over the cooled brownie crust. Arrange the banana and strawberry slices over the cream cheese mixture. Sprinkle with the chopped nuts and drizzle with chocolate ice cream topping. Refrigerate. To serve, slice as you would a pizza, and enjoy!

The night was so much fun! I have a great time with those girls! They're all so much fun to talk to and hang out with, so it turned out to be a great night!

I also got some sweet birthday gifts!

Kelly gave me a really cute coffee mug, because I looove coffee, that spells out friend using synonyms for the word like "pal, chum" and stuff like that! It had a big high-waisted belt, gum and a "coffee on me" coupon she had made for me in it!

Lori and Caroline gave me a great little gift basket with a bunch of fun stuff in it including a Panera gift card, a wish list book, a mason jar of bright sunflowers (that I already have on our kitchen table) and lotssss of chocolate! (Duh, I'm addicted)

Since I have a nice big bathtub all to my self, my friend Megan gave me a plush white towel and some really fancy smell good lilac soap! I thought that was so thoughtful, I love baths! 

Then my friend Brittney gave me a cute little bird earring holder with some feather earrings on it! I love anything bird themed! It's actually in my living room now cause it goes with the bird posters I got over the summer!


Megan also had a sweet idea for my friends! She wanted them to all write something they liked about me on a sticky note and stick it to my mirror! I thought that was so sweet of them!

Here are some more pictures from the night! I had a great time, a great birthday and I have great friends! I'm extremely blessed, thankful and excited for what my 20's have to bring!!

Megan and Caroline!

Kelly and Me!

Laura and Kelly!

Me and Lori!

Caroline, Me and Lori being dumb

Caroline and Brittney!

August 25, 2011

I'll see you.

We broke on a Sunday.
I'd said  "I'll see you..."
turned and vanished,
left you hanging.
You'd caused me to be anxious
tapping my foot to the clock
waiting for an escape-
I only needed a reason.

We'd vacationed the previous summer.
Ocean Isle, sea, you 
and my rumbling thoughts.
We put a bottle in the water
and watched it float away, blue.
Like us, one day destroyed.
Glass to sand, not much understood
except to just let go.

At night I shut my eyes but 
I'll see you there in the clinched lids
kaleidoscope colors from pressure.
It's not what we were,
it's distorted, fantastical.
And I let the tears
cover my lashes, fall onto my nose
until I'm swept into a dream.

It's all a blur right now but I know I'll see.
You have become a figment of my 
imagination and I'll have become
washed out colors on glossy photos
stuffed under a bed at your mother's house.
Compare me to a crayon drawing,
refrigerator framed,
hung up on you
for just a few months.

I know, I know, and you know know too
that I'll see you sometime.
But sometime isn't enough time
and too much time at the same time.
It's another way to say it's over
because "in time" is not "our time"
and that's the only way
I see you.

August 20, 2011

cheesy story.

Sorry I haven't been posting lately! I've just been getting situated back in Boone, cleaning, organizing, and having fun! I feel like I run out of creative things to talk about on here but I do want to share a funny story with ya'll! 

About a week ago Granny (my grandmother on my Dad's side) gave me a Dunkin' Donuts giftcard for my birthday! I loveeee me some DD coffee and I also LOVE donuts. But since I'm in Boone and we're all uncommercialized and whatever, unfortunately we don't have a Dunkin' Donuts in town.

So Lori and I decided to road trip to the closest Dunkin Donuts to treat ourselves to some donuts and coffee. I put Dunkin Donuts in my phone's GPS and off we went to West Jefferson. My phone had said it was going to take about 45 minutes to get there but we didn't mind cause we knew it'd be a fun and delicious adventure!

Well after a few turns and 45 minutes later, we pulled up to...a Hess gas station. And hanging there in the window was a tiny little Dunkin' Donuts sign. But Lori and I tried to be optimistic and thought maybe they had a Dunkin' Donuts section in the back so we decided to go look inside.

As we made our way to the back of the store, what my phone GPS had considered a Dunkin' Donuts ended up being a giant self serve thermos of their coffee and zero donuts. And I had been really looking forward to some munchkins! 

We were so bummed! And we were cracking up because we had driven all this way! So instead of going straight back to Boone, Lori got out her phone and searched coffee shops in West Jefferson, Ashe County. On the list was a place called "Bohemia" so we decided to take our chances and check it out.

Well, I'm SO glad we did! It was the cutest little coffee shop! It had the work of local artists hanging on the walls, had a stage for music on the weekends and cute little plush couches and a lot of delicious drinks on the menu! I'm so glad we got to check it out! I ended up getting an Almond Joy drink and some homemade pumpkin bread and I loved it! We had so much fun just sitting in there enjoying our little misadventure.  

After Bohemia, we walked around Downtown West Jefferson, visited a guitar shop and got to try some goat cheese fudge from this sweet older women who worked in a store called Angel's Touch. Haha, what a quaint little town!

We were about to leave but we knew there was one thing we needed to do before we left Ashe County....


For those of you who don't know, Ashe County has the only cheese plant in the entire state of North Carolina! On the drive to Dunkin' Donuts we had passed these GIANT cow statues and a sign that said "see cheese made" and we knew we had to stop!

Man, the cheese samples were good! It was really neat to see them packaging the cheese and they had so many different kinds in the Ashe Country Cheese store. They had tomato basil cheese, bacon cheddar cheese, carolina bleu cheese, mountain cheddar cheese and many others! You should check out the Ashe County Cheese website!

Anyway, what we thought was a Dunkin' Donuts fail ended up being a really fun afternoon! We traveled to Bohemia, saw cheese being made and tried cheese curds!

Sometimes the unexpected ends up being the most fun!