It's officially the first night of summer! My mind should be blank or thinking about stupid TV shows or the fact that I'm craving a cookout milkshake or some garlic knots.
But instead I'm thinking about the future. Pshhhh, the future? Whatttt?
I'm going to be starting my internship when I get back to Charlotte and I guess thoughts about that kind of triggered it. I really want to do well during my internship and continue to do well once I get back to school. I want to make really good grades and try to keep up relationships and school work while also having a job.
In my family, I wouldn't be considered a worrier. I have my sisters and my Dad to do that for me. But for some reason tonight I just started thinking about friends and jobs and money and careers and love and everything that is to come!
The future is scary because it's so unknown - the only thing you know is what you want.
If you didn't know what you wanted the future wouldn't be a big deal because anything that happened would be fine. No expectations, just appreciation for the outcome you're given.
For me though I have lots of expectations about the future. I want to graduate with a solid GPA, live at home for a few months and build up some money at my first "real job". Then I'll find an apartment, move away from home and keep working until I have enough to move to a big city like New York or Boston. But what If I don't get a job when I graduate? What if I'm stuck working at Bath and Body Works until I'm 26?
And it's not even the big things like finding a husband or a job that make the future scary.
I've been thinking about living situations - making the most of my circumstances even if they're not what I would've chosen.
Trying to keep my friendships strong even if it takes a lot of random texts, phone calls and money spent on gas driving to see each other.
Mark my words - I WILL MAKE IT BIG. Seriously, it's going to happen.
Anyway, I don't really know where this post is going. I just thought I'd rant about the future. I wish I could just glimpse into it. Not to see what happens but just to see how happy I am on a scale of one to ten. But I guess if I was a 2 or something then that'd be really depressing.
Anyway that's it for now! Maybe I'll dream of the future.
(if I have typing errors it's cause I wrote this really fast - my bad)