May 16, 2010

I want this and this and this and this...

Today I was sitting in my bathtub (ah, what a luxury these days) just thinking about life...
and a thought came to mind:
isn't crazy how much of your life you waste on wanting and waiting?
I began to think about how no matter what age you are, there is always something better out there; something you want more. And I realized that nothing ever satisfies my wants.

When you're little there are so many things you want that are out of your grasp.
It's always "wait until your older, then you'll be able to do/have ____"
Then when you finally become older, you're stuck waiting again.
Maybe just a little older next time, then you'll get what you have been waiting for.
Just wait until you're 16, then you can drive anywhere you want. Just wait until you're 18, then your opinion will matter a little more. Just wait until you're 21, then you'll get whatever you want because you'll be an adult.

I feel like I mention this a lot, but there are so many things in my life right now that I want SO badly. I'm the queen of impatience. It may sound greedy, unappreciative, selfish and absurd, but it's true. And one of the most irritating things that people tell me is that maybe if I stop wanting - looking - searching - hoping for something - I'll finally get it.

So for all you advice givers out there, thats what I'm gonna try to do.

It's time that I stop wanting & waiting and start appreciating.

The thing is, wanting is pointless. It achieves nothing. All it does is make you frustrated and ungrateful of what you have.
It doesn't make whatever you want suddenly appear.
It doesn't get you any closer to being older.
It doesn't do anything except bring you down.
So from now on, I'm gonna try at least, to stop wanting and start appreciating. Time is so valuable, why waste it?

" you can't always get what you want
but if you try sometimes
you just might find
you get what you need..."

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

1. i'm proud of you. Not wanting is so hard. I suck at it.
2. I LOVE that song
3. I miss you and I wish to see you soon
4. I love your blog